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Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Tentatively Trying

I started my taxes today. Is it strange that I kind of think they're fun to do? Don't know why, but I do. Of course, having to pay taxes isn't any fun. I just like filling out the forms. Odd, trust me, I know.

I'm trying really hard to take care of myself through this stressful time. My life has turned into me taking care of someone close to me, and in doing so, I had forgotten about myself. This person, who I love dearly, doesn't seem to realize that we are going through everything together. When I try to talk about my feelings, we end up talking about theirs instead. We talk all the time, but now I'm trying to put a bit of space between us. Every time we hang up, I end up in tears. And this loved one has no idea. I know tears is not what is wanted for me. So, space is what I need to protect myself.

My weight has become a non-issue for me. Since health is so important, I think it needs to come back on my radar. The good news is that I haven't gained any weight even while dealing with so much stress. I haven't lost any either. Am still at the exact same weight - to the ounce! Amazing. One area I have not slacked is water guzzling. I am still drinking water like no other - looks like that helps.

Time for veggie stir-fry. What a delicious lunch that will be. And no sugar popsicles for dessert. Yum.

Turning this frown upside down.

Wednesday, February 15, 2012


I want life to be positive - filled with sunshine and roses. Unfortunately, life has been complicated and miserable. So, I'm just going to post what is going well...

Throughout all the family stress, I didn't gain an ounce.
The medical family crisis is almost over.
My husband is incredibly supportive.

For now, that's all I've got. My back still hurts, I'm in the middle of family drama, my best friend is working nights so we never connect, my other best friend is leaving for a couple weeks when I need her most. I will survive. Just might not write as much as I'm looking for the strength to get through this.